I'm sitting here thinking, "Do I really want to share with the world how I may have become deaf?" Not even my spouse knows this secret I'm contemplating on telling. It's five o'clock in the morning, my spouse is sleeping peacefully while I'm keying on my keyboard and feeling the need to tell my dreadful secret. I know I'm not going to tell my spouse this secret that I've kept for four years because it may cause my spouse respect me less and maybe begin to feel sorry for me and of course no one likes rejection. My spouse may even become angry with me for not telling this secret sooner and for learning of this secret itself. Which leads me to wonder, what I would gain by telling such a secret. Perhaps I should leave things the way they are by not sharing my secret. My spouse hasn't read my blog yet and I certainly haven't pushed it on her. Yes. That's correct. My spouse and I are both female. If you've noticed in my blog I've kept even this a secret until now. I'm sharing this tid bit of information because I'm still contemplating on sharing my biggest secret with the world.
Rejection, guilt, shame, and deserving are words that come to my mind regarding my secret. Right now I'm comfortable with saying, "My hearing loss is GOD's Divine Intervention". Somehow that statement say's it all.
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