It is four twenty-seven in the morning and I can't sleep. I just had a terrible dream. In my dream my spouse of twenty-one years is rape ping me (being very persistent). Why? Because for the last four years (ever since I lost my hearing), I have not been able to make love with my spouse. Why? Well it's a long story. And it all has to do with me and my low self esteem.
Grab a cup of coffee, sit back, and allow me to write my story for you.
When my spouse and I first met it was like an attraction similar to fire and wood. Put the two together and you have more fire kinda like a fire that people sit around to keep warm. People could see just how compatible we were. Some people were even jealous of our newly found fiery relationship. Oh, we (my spouse and I) were tight. You never saw us apart. If you saw one, then you'd see the other. You get the picture.
We met at a dance club called the Foxhole. I (at the time) was a very flirty and sexual being. I had had many sexual adventures so to speak then one day out of the blue comes this very persistent red-head who walks up to me (while I'm trying to get with this other person), interrupts us and says to me, "Hi I'm .... (and says their name) as if I'm suppose to drop everything and converse with this new person (of whom I'm with today).
Well, it took me one week before I gave into this saucy red-head. And to this day, I have no regrets. Not only were we compatible in public, but behind closed doors our sex life was like a rocket which was always launching to new heights.
You never really realize what senses play a role in sexual behavior until you lose one. For me, it's sound and for some reason (now that I can't hear) my self-esteem and my sex life seem to have vanished.
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